Prisoner in my own home – Kitty with a broken leg

I’m on edge. In my own home. Held captive by a four legged tyrant who himself is captive.

We are tied together in our misery.

He is frustrated with his tiny environment and his slow-to-heal leg. I am overwhelmed with the never ending duty of nurse, supervisor, and caregiver.

It’s too much.

The guilt that I feel in even saying this is too much.

I can’t spend more than 4 hours away from the house during the day, and evenings are no longer my own to give away.

Like Cinderella I have a curfew, but unlike Cinderella my curfew is attached to the sun going down not the strike of midnight. Continue reading Prisoner in my own home – Kitty with a broken leg

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Mom Triggers

Even with adoption no longer feeling imminent, every part of my life I try to translate into a lesson I can learn to either understand my potential future adopted children, or I can use to help them through their own tough times. (and maybe even help me become a good mom!)

Last week was my birthday.

And what would a birthday be without a mom trigger? Continue reading Mom Triggers

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Parental Attachment Style in Adoption

Webinar – July 28, 2015

I want to send a big thank you shout out to Dawn Davenport and the team at Creating a Family, as well as Dr. Dan Siegel (http://www.drdansiegel.com/books_and_more/) for giving their time and energy to create this webinar/workshop that I was fortunate to attend.

Thank you all for making this webinar not only happen, but also making it available free of charge!!

Anything attachment related is such valuable information, and to have been given the opportunity to attend for free was a wonderful gift. Continue reading Parental Attachment Style in Adoption

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Distance from the path

it-feels-as-though-IveRecently we had an annual festival in my town, and I am heavily involved both at an organisational committee level and as a volunteer through the weekend.

This time I was also “official photographer” for the festival website.

What was interesting to me this year which differed from the last few years was that I did not connect the festivities with my future adoption. Continue reading Distance from the path

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Adoption Networking Event

Foremost, I want to say a huge thank you to the organisers for creating a memorable day. It was exactly what I was hoping for in a matching event, and was a well-presented, well-organised day.

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The event overall:

The thing that I think all of the parents in the room were most thankful for, myself included, was the ability to see children’s profiles, see photos, see video, hear their voices, and hear personal stories from those who know and love them.

This is absolutely invaluable to prospective parents. Continue reading Adoption Networking Event

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Pre Adoption Networking Event

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This week I am going to an Adoption Networking Event on Thursday, June 4 in the city.

An Adoption Networking Event is another name for a matching event, where social workers showcase some of the children under their care who are waiting for adoptive families, and pre-adoptive families showcase themselves.

It is also, as the name suggests, a chance for parents and social workers from around BC to get together and network.

My social worker has let me know that as a pre-adoptive parent with the unsteady upbringing, some poor choices along the way, and my current single status, is it much better for someone to meet me and form an opinion, than reading a 10 page file on my life so far. Continue reading Pre Adoption Networking Event

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The feel of a newborn

new babyLast week my friend and co-worker gave birth to a precious little baby girl 🙂

Little K.E. joined her family on May fourth and became little sister to two year old A.J. Both parents are ecstatic to have two healthy, happy, little girls in their family. And I am overjoyed for them.

While I have only known my friend for a little over a year, we seemed to be kindred spirits and hit it off from that very first meeting. She feels like family, and that makes her family also feel like family.

I was privileged to be a part of this pregnancy pretty much from the day after they decided to start trying for their second child. I was also privy to the news of the pregnancy as soon as they found out and I had to keep the secret right along with them, until it was time to share it.

I got to watch her grow and change and go through the motions (like sickness) and emotions (like tears), and the whole experience has been an incredible honour for me in ways I’m not certain I have the vocabulary to share.

Especially as someone who may never get to experience the gift of creating life within my own body. Continue reading The feel of a newborn

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Alone in the end

Last night I watched a movie where the father (who was also a grandfather), died. It wasn’t the focal point of the movie, but it was a significant part of the story.

It made me think about my own parents, and cry buckets of tears.

The man in the movie had his family rallying around him in the end, even his son who hadn’t seen him for many, many years showed up for his last dying moments.

I was not there for, or even aware of, my dad’s passing, and I likely won’t know of my mom’s either until after it happens. Continue reading Alone in the end

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