Am I mom material? Or am I a fraud?

One thing that is freaking me out most of all is that NO ONE is telling me this is a bad idea.

Not the Czech Republic part of the transfer, because a couple of friends have shown concern about this part of it.

But the having a baby part.

NO ONE has been unsupportive of this!

NOT ONE PERSON.

How is this possible?

And why does that make me feel so uncomfortable. Continue reading Am I mom material? Or am I a fraud?

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March Booking – Embryo Transfer

Booking for March Transfer

My flights are booked!

Emotions.

I have been approved as an adoptive parent through the Ministry (adoption from foster care) for 3.5 years, and with one failed match and no other matches, I had almost forgotten what it felt like to be “expecting”.

When I was first approved for adoption, I made announcements, I was giddy with excitement, I was full-throttle about courses, and internal work to become “ready”. Then as the months turned into a year and one year turned into more years, it all seemed more like a hazy dream, rather than something imminent.

For the first year or so, the people to whom I’d made announcements used to constantly check in on me, “Any news?”… until they stopped. Continue reading March Booking – Embryo Transfer

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Embryo Transfer – Husband Required

The only catch with pursuing Embryo Adoption through the Czech Republic was that their laws are such that only a married couple can access these services. Male/female marriage to be precise.

Thankfully, two of the clinics that I contacted (out of the three) only required that I provide identification for my “husband”. He was not required to travel with me.

So I was in search of a friend who would provide me with a copy of their driver’s licence that I could send with my application. Continue reading Embryo Transfer – Husband Required

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Flight, Freeze, Fight – Personal Crisis Response

I’m terrible in a crisis.

A personal crisis.

Terrible.

Fight. Flight. Freeze.

My first instinct is Flight.

As soon as a personal crisis happens I want to run away from it, it’s instinctual, primal even, everything in my body screams “RUN!”.

And by “run” sometimes that looks like turning my back on the situation and trying to pretend it isn’t there. (Okay, being honest, that is often my go-to.) Continue reading Flight, Freeze, Fight – Personal Crisis Response

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Frozen Embryo Transfer – Medical Requirements

After deciding to go ahead with an Embryo Transfer in the Czech Republic, I had set up an appointment with my doctor to go over the medical requirements the clinic had sent me via email.

My appointment with my doctor rolled around, and I was feeling a little nervous about it.

When I’d first considered Artificial Insemination (AI) as a real option late last year, a dear friend who is more like a sister to me suggested I go to the doctor and have myself checked out before commencing. She suggested STD checks, pap smear, having my uterus checked, and so on.

To be honest, I hadn’t had a pap smear for over 12 years, and I’d never had an STD check, let alone any of the other tests! Continue reading Frozen Embryo Transfer – Medical Requirements

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Frozen Embryo Transfer (FET) – Not Adoption

You may have pieced this together already because I mentioned the two donor forms that I was provided by the clinic, one for the female characteristics and one for the male.

But I did not.

It was only through reading more posts on the forums for the Czech Republic that I started to get it…

These clinics use donor embryos and donor sperm from young healthy donors, mostly university students, and create the embryo specifically for the client. Continue reading Frozen Embryo Transfer (FET) – Not Adoption

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Embryo Adoption – The way for me

The more thought I’ve given to this option of Embryo Adoption, the more I’m feeling as though this is the way to go for me at this point in my life.

I was willing to try Artificial Insemination with the cup and syringe, but honestly it made my heart cringe at the thought of meeting some random guy, taking his jizz and inserting it into my body… even if it was the healthiest of sperm.

Just too much “EW” factor for me. Continue reading Embryo Adoption – The way for me

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Embryo Adoption – Czech Republic

The past month had been a whirlwind of information about all of the conception options… and it felt a bit like stepping under the tree and falling down the rabbit hole!

Bouncing back and forth amongst Facebook groups and forums, connecting with people, reading, researching, etc…

Having almost given up on Embryo Adoption due to the high cost in Canada, with a minimum cost of $10,000, I continued my research into Artificial Insemination to try to get as comfortable with this option as possible.

However, the idea of embryo adoption would not leave my mind. Continue reading Embryo Adoption – Czech Republic

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Artificial Insemination – Making Connections

The same friend that recommended Embryo Adoption, suggested that I connect with a LGBQT Families group on Facebook to ask my questions about Aritificial Insemination, because many of the couples on there had used this method with high success.

I did connect with the group and asked my question, 6 people in total responded with information and asked me to PM them for more information. So I did.

The wonderful ladies I connected with were super helpful, giving me tips and tricks on what to look for, what to avoid – many things I’d worked out in the few short weeks I’d been a part of this “community” – as well as advice on the “how”. Continue reading Artificial Insemination – Making Connections

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Embryo Adoption – Snowflake Babies

As the days wore on I continued my research into Artificial Insemination by sperm donation. I posted a question on a Facebook group I had connected to for single women wanting to have children about getting pregnant by sperm donation.

My question was about safety. Had anyone made contact with any local sperm donors, what was their experience, did it work?

One of the friends that I’d made through the adoption community responded to me in a private message and asked if I had considered Embryo Adoption. Continue reading Embryo Adoption – Snowflake Babies

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