Embryo Adoption – The way for me

The more thought I’ve given to this option of Embryo Adoption, the more I’m feeling as though this is the way to go for me at this point in my life.

I was willing to try Artificial Insemination with the cup and syringe, but honestly it made my heart cringe at the thought of meeting some random guy, taking his jizz and inserting it into my body… even if it was the healthiest of sperm.

Just too much “EW” factor for me. Continue reading Embryo Adoption – The way for me

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Embryo Adoption – Czech Republic

The past month had been a whirlwind of information about all of the conception options… and it felt a bit like stepping under the tree and falling down the rabbit hole!

Bouncing back and forth amongst Facebook groups and forums, connecting with people, reading, researching, etc…

Having almost given up on Embryo Adoption due to the high cost in Canada, with a minimum cost of $10,000, I continued my research into Artificial Insemination to try to get as comfortable with this option as possible.

However, the idea of embryo adoption would not leave my mind. Continue reading Embryo Adoption – Czech Republic

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Hiatus

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Taking a hiatus.

Another way of saying withdrawing into a slump of hopelessness.

Followed, of course, by the journey back to a place where hope dwells.

I remember years ago, in my early 20’s, I had started seeing my bio-dad again. He was sick (MS), had been all my life, and I found it emotionally challenging to spend time with him. Continue reading Hiatus

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The coil at the end of the rope

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Last weekend during a three hour yoga workshop I connected with the feeling that I’ve been holding too tightly to outcomes in my life.

And I – again – realised that when I feel as though my life is spinning out of my control, I hang on to whatever idea that feels like a lifeline as though it is indeed a lifeline.

Not only do I hold onto this idea, but I defend it, protect it, and nurture it so vehemently that I often don’t see it is nothing more than a rope, the end of which is sitting at my feet, coiled, not actually attached to any solution. Continue reading The coil at the end of the rope

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The Blanket Exercise

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Saturday I participated in an Early Child Development Conference workshop entitled “The Blanket Exercise”.

This was an interactive workshop about the history of First Nations people in Canada, with particular emphasis on First Nations people in BC.

There were many First Nations participants, one First Nations facilitator, and several First Nations elders from the local band.

Most of the people present had been a part of Continue reading The Blanket Exercise

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My town or adoption

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These are my choices right now: to stay in my town, or to adopt and start a family.

Yes, burgeoning house and rental prices are forcing me to choose between adoption or the town that I have called home for over 10 years, a town that I love, a town in which I have established a great network of friends, become involved in many community groups, and learned to play drums with the local pipe band.

In the past 18 months, and especially in the past 12 months, house prices have soared well out of my affordable range. Not only purchase prices, but rental prices too. Continue reading My town or adoption

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Mom Triggers

Even with adoption no longer feeling imminent, every part of my life I try to translate into a lesson I can learn to either understand my potential future adopted children, or I can use to help them through their own tough times. (and maybe even help me become a good mom!)

Last week was my birthday.

And what would a birthday be without a mom trigger? Continue reading Mom Triggers

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2nd Adoption Networking Event (ANE)

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Last week I attended my second ANE (Adoption Networking Event) this year in the lower mainland of BC.

I would like to start by saying a HUGE thank you to those people who work tirelessly to put together events such as this, the social workers, guardianship workers, and all of their support workers, the AFABC social workers and support workers, and the Wendy’s Wonderful Kids workers. And to anyone else missing from this list who contributed to making the day possible.

Thank you. Thank you. Thank you!

Events such as these give hope to waiting parents, and give us an outlet for the voice that feels unheard some of the time during the waiting stage.

I would also like to do a quick shout out of thanks to the emcee of the day, the same emcee as earlier this year. She once again did an amazing job at keeping the momentum of the event running smoothly, using humour when needed, and allowing people to find their own voice. She is a gifted host and a lovely person.

And one final shout out of thanks to my own SW who was in attendance and made me feel that I had someone at my back all day. It was great to get to catch up with her and talk a little about where I am at and what I’m hoping for in adoption as of now.

Many thanks to all… Continue reading 2nd Adoption Networking Event (ANE)

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Adoption Stats

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Last Friday there was an Adoption Networking Event in Victoria, BC.

While I wasn’t able to attend this year, I had some other pre-adoptive parent friends who attended and gave me updates.

One parent friend sent me messages throughout the day on the different kids profiled and it was great to feel like I was still participating. Thank you!

It seemed that there were a lot of younger kids profiled from what I heard compared to last year. And that made me wish I’d been able to attend. Continue reading Adoption Stats

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Sick Kitty = Weepy Mom

My kitty cat, Greyson, is teaching me what I will be like as a mom.

Or at least what I might be like – because a mostly self-sufficient, independent cat is a totally different experience to a child, I do understand this.

This past weekend he got sick, and I cried.

On Saturday evening I was resting on the couch while watching a movie, (Blended, with Drew Barrymore and Adam Sandler, a cute movie), and Greyson came and snuggled into one of my feet. His arm and paw around my foot like so:

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My heart expanded with happy feelings of love for him.

About 30 minutes later, Continue reading Sick Kitty = Weepy Mom

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