I remember when I first started the adoption process and I was crying at the smallest gestures of love, of beauty, of nature. I was so open, so raw, so ready.
Then the process took it’s time and it was not really about “kids and family” anymore it was about therapy, courses, books, interviews, and getting to the “approval” stage.
Of course, that part of the process was a necessary part, a practical part, and I learned so much, not only about myself and the parent I want to become, but about children in care and skills for effective parenting. It has been invaluable.
But now the focus is back to the kids and creating a family and I’m feeling that same raw, open-hearted, vulnerability.
I see families walking down the street, I cry. I watch a TV show with families, I cry. Someone is kind to me, I cry!
My eyes are open to families everywhere, to the tender moments between parent and child, to the absolute beauty and majesty of life around me, and I often find myself tearing up for the simple joy of living, and for the future unfolding.
Some truly beautiful moments have happened for me recently, and I’ve connected with some wonderful people.
Last week I went to one of our local hardware stores to get a quote on bathrooms and was told to come back the next day and talk to a specific store clerk. When I went back and saw her, she asked if it was just going to be me in the house and I replied, “no, I’m adopting” …well, she almost ate me up…! Continue reading