Though my doctor had said I didn’t need to take the final blood test on the Friday after our last appointment, I decided to take it anyway.
The results: 10,817 – doubled in three days!
You see, now that I’d done 15 pee tests, and had three blood tests, all confirming I was pregnant – I started to become scared of losing it.
Every day I monitored how I felt, the symptoms I was having and whether they were ‘strong enough’ or the ‘right ones’ that proved I was “still” pregnant.
So Friday came and I did the final test. I was feeling pretty good about it when I mentioned to the girl doing the bloods that this was my fourth test and that the other three were positive so I was feeling excited to get these results too.
She replied, “oh, that’s great news. We don’t ask because people come in for these tests either when their pregnant or when they’ve just miscarried.”
Just hearing that terrifying word put a dampener on my day and I started to worry about the results. What if they didn’t multiply enough, what if they decreased instead of increased.
I almost worried myself sick for the next few hours, so I spent some time meditating and then giving myself the usual pep-talks, including “no matter what happens we’ll be okay.”
On Sunday I woke feeling great. Wonderful even. No nausea, no tiredness, no sore boobs, no….
Wait! OH MY GOODNESS… NO SYMPTOMS!
Panic hit me. Pure panic. Continue reading 21dp6dt Beta Results