Life with or without pips? The law of attraction is absolute. You experience what you are predominantly thinking and feeling. Oftentimes, I “get” that on an intellectual level… “if I think this, or more aptly FEEL this, then I will … Continue reading
I wanted to leave you with some positive thoughts while I’m gone for the first few weeks of December, and in that timely way that the Universe does, a friend sent me this list of “Things to Remember” (see below).
I also made it into a PDF (here: Things to Remember) so that you can pull up and print off to read it each day. (It now lives beside my computer at work, along with a beautiful Mark Nepo poem I might share someday…)
It was an email, forwarded through workstations around the world, and sadly I do not know who to credit for this list. However, these are great things to remember and I feel that in sharing them the author will be rewarded with the love it evoked within me and within you as well 🙂
There are so many great points to remember on this list, and all of them resonate with me on a level that makes my heart go “YES!”, but my favourite among them is this very simple one: Continue reading
Off the grid…! From Tuesday 3 December until Thursday 12 December I will be off the technological communication grid! There will be no tweets, no likes, no posts, no blasts, no emails, no texts, no phone calls. It’s my birthday … Continue reading
It’s been a whirlwind week and I apologize for the lack of posts on the usual topic of impending adoption and parenthood.
However, if you will humour me – I have spent an inordinate amount of time this week thinking about the topic of my heading.
Gaining Citizenship last week was an incredible feat for me. It is the first thing in my entire life that I’ve really wanted to achieve and followed through on the achieving of it – even though it took a long time.
It’s the first time I have ever set out with the hope of achieving something, kept my faith that I would achieve it, allowed people and situations to come into my life to help me achieve it, leapt forward with blind faith (sometimes pure arrogance) toward the goal even when the end was not in sight, filled in every form, took passport photo after passport photo as per the requirements, and showed extreme patience waiting for the end result.
And it paid off.
Here is a bit of a timeline on my Citizenship journey for interest: Continue reading
Today I became an official Canadian Citizen!!! I say official, because in my heart I’ve been Canadian since I first set foot on Canadian soil in 2003. It took 10 years to take the oath, and today is one of … Continue reading
Expectant Mother – Adoption Journey Series… The Second Home Study Full-disclosure. Rape, Alcohol, Pot, Sexual History, Relationships… The second home study came a few weeks after the first, and I felt a little less nerve-wracked than the first time… but … Continue reading
Expectant Mother – Adoption Journey Series… A Clean Slate I feel as though I’m seeing the world through new eyes, I’m noticing things around me that I never noticed before from the perspective of a parent, I’m delving into myself … Continue reading
Like many expectant mothers, I am analyzing everything I do now, everything I believe now, I’m imagining future scenarios and future conversations with my children at various stages of their life – and at various ages.
I’m wondering if I am truly equipped to be a mom.
Am I ready enough? Sane enough? Stable enough?
Good questions right!?
And the big one:
(That’s the one that always gets me) Continue reading
I was talking with some friends the other night, and one of the guys was asking me about the process of adoption.
While we were talking we got onto the subject of children that hadn’t been cuddled as they were growing up, who didn’t know affection or love from their parents.
The guy scoffed and said, “My parents didn’t hug me when I was a child, and I turned out OK. What about you?…” directing his question to the rest of the people at the table.
The whole table erupted at once. Continue reading
My relationship with my physical abilities as a female to create life has been a long and slow acceptance.
I am a romantic soul at heart and the creation of life was my most romantic notion of all. It was something I did not want to do until I was completely, fully, 100% in love – for the rest of my life in love – with the man of my dreams.
In my youth the thought of becoming pregnant terrified me. Not only would people know I’d had sex, but I’d get fat, and I’d have a baby at the end of it. The whole thing was horrifying. Especially the part about people knowing I had sex. I would see pregnant women with their husbands and think ‘ew, they had sex to make that happen, grosse‘.
I was a little immature about it you might say!
When I started dating my ex-husband in my late teens, his family all had children young. Three generations of late-teen-early-20’s mothers and they wanted me to join the ranks. I still remember telling his grandmother after what felt like the umpteenth time we’d had that conversation that “my mother was 35 when she had me and I plan to wait until then.”
They stopped pestering me for fear that I was serious. I was. Continue reading