Snowshoeing is the Bomb!! I love firsts! That heart-racing exhilaration of doing something – anything – for the first time in your life. (Or for the first time with someone new….like the first time he (or she) brushes your fingertips with … Continue reading
This past weekend I completed my first ever Tandem Sky Dive! I’m not going to lie and say it was the most amazing experience of my life – although it was one of them – because it was also completely terrifying! … Continue reading
Let me start this post by saying, this year did not feel like Christmas to me. (sorry for the negative start!)
Now there may have been something in the water because many people in my town voiced this same sentiment without any prompt or comment from me first.
Several things come to mind about why this might be.
As an expectant mother now, knowing that I’m months away from approval as an adoptive parent, knowing that “this time” next year I could be a mom, made this Christmas seem like a bit of a letdown.
Sure, I’ve been on my own for a few years now so being alone at Christmas was not the issue, I actually adore time on my own and Christmas is one of my favourite times of the year. I love all the glitz and sparkles and lights and trimmings. I always still put up a tree, wrap gifts for friends underneath the tree, watch terrible Christmas movies, sing Christmas songs (love Christmas music!), make a small turkey dinner with all the extras, eat Christmas cake and too many chocolates while sipping hot eggnog and rum. I adore Christmas.
And I still did all of that this year too but felt a little “ho-hum” about it.
One thing I did do that surprised me and made me feel a little excited for what is to come, was I bought my future kids a Christmas gift… Continue reading
Life with or without pips? The law of attraction is absolute. You experience what you are predominantly thinking and feeling. Oftentimes, I “get” that on an intellectual level… “if I think this, or more aptly FEEL this, then I will … Continue reading
I wanted to leave you with some positive thoughts while I’m gone for the first few weeks of December, and in that timely way that the Universe does, a friend sent me this list of “Things to Remember” (see below).
I also made it into a PDF (here: Things to Remember) so that you can pull up and print off to read it each day. (It now lives beside my computer at work, along with a beautiful Mark Nepo poem I might share someday…)
It was an email, forwarded through workstations around the world, and sadly I do not know who to credit for this list. However, these are great things to remember and I feel that in sharing them the author will be rewarded with the love it evoked within me and within you as well 🙂
There are so many great points to remember on this list, and all of them resonate with me on a level that makes my heart go “YES!”, but my favourite among them is this very simple one: Continue reading
Off the grid…! From Tuesday 3 December until Thursday 12 December I will be off the technological communication grid! There will be no tweets, no likes, no posts, no blasts, no emails, no texts, no phone calls. It’s my birthday … Continue reading
It’s been a whirlwind week and I apologize for the lack of posts on the usual topic of impending adoption and parenthood.
However, if you will humour me – I have spent an inordinate amount of time this week thinking about the topic of my heading.
Gaining Citizenship last week was an incredible feat for me. It is the first thing in my entire life that I’ve really wanted to achieve and followed through on the achieving of it – even though it took a long time.
It’s the first time I have ever set out with the hope of achieving something, kept my faith that I would achieve it, allowed people and situations to come into my life to help me achieve it, leapt forward with blind faith (sometimes pure arrogance) toward the goal even when the end was not in sight, filled in every form, took passport photo after passport photo as per the requirements, and showed extreme patience waiting for the end result.
And it paid off.
Here is a bit of a timeline on my Citizenship journey for interest: Continue reading
Today I became an official Canadian Citizen!!! I say official, because in my heart I’ve been Canadian since I first set foot on Canadian soil in 2003. It took 10 years to take the oath, and today is one of … Continue reading
Like many expectant mothers, I am analyzing everything I do now, everything I believe now, I’m imagining future scenarios and future conversations with my children at various stages of their life – and at various ages.
I’m wondering if I am truly equipped to be a mom.
Am I ready enough? Sane enough? Stable enough?
Good questions right!?
And the big one:
(That’s the one that always gets me) Continue reading
On the very same day that I submitted my Questionnaire, I sent a follow up email to ensure Theresa received it.
Subject: Questionnaire complete
Hi Theresa,
I dropped off my questionnaire for you today.
Please let me know if you have any questions, or need any clarification. Sorry about all of the “extra columns” and additional notes/comments…hope that’s OK… I like to play outside of the lines a little!
It feels a little vulnerable to have filled that in and submitted it. Actually I can only imagine what picture forms from reading it… I don’t feel uncomfortable about any of it myself, but from the outside looking in I realise it can appear “difficult”.
I’ll look forward to hearing from you, and look forward to the “next step” when it is ready to go ahead.
Ali
Theresa responded the same day and I appreciate that about her so much, she never left me hanging.
Thanks Ali…
I have reviewed the questionnaire already; most people definitely feel as you do; it’s a very vulnerable state to be in; someone looking at your past and seeing its role in your present and future. I have been through the process myself so I fully understand.
Believe me, there was nothing shocking.
So, next step is to start the home study process.
I would suggest meeting at your place some day after work or a day off; I can be flexible.
Thinking maybe 1-1/5 hours…just as a guideline.
Take care
I was glad that there was nothing shocking in my questionnaire, and that she let me know she’d been through the process herself. That was helpful in allowing me to relax and have faith that she would not judge me because I had a sometimes unstable upbringing.
This was good news. Continue reading